Mad world

Fingers endlessly tingling, workload keeps increasing and our political system is imploding.

I just want to sit like this. For quite some time.

:: Mad world by Tears for Fears

Overload

Oh dear, I think I've been taking too much on.

What with work, half-term socialising, trick-or-treating, bonfire parties and constructing a Crystal Maze game for the family (as you do) I am in danger of overbalancing.

Not the physical wobble (although there is a risk of that) but overbalancing the precarious MS seesaw.

The one that keeps everything just about in check as long as you learn not to push your luck. Not to take that extra call, plan that extra activity or enjoy that one more late night.

You see, with MS, we all know that the sensible thing is to pace ourselves.

But with MS, we all know the over-riding panic is do it now or we may never be able to.

I don't know at what point I am going to learn to balance the two. But if I haven't learned it in nearly 15 years of living with this energy-zapping disease, I'm beginning to wonder if I ever will.

Probably worth some proper consideration.

But can't stop now. Things to do. While I can.

:: Overload - Alfie Zappacosta